This Is You

theres a beatiful skkkkky tonight

2003-08-19T03:20:12Z

OMG i got that f'ing worm virus WTF i mean really. Andrew WK is my f'in idol he is soo bomb.

seriously i will bring the mosh to him anyday. sometimes i wish things were like they use to be i am so lonely sometimes it is unbareably. hot topic has this new hopesfall shirt i'm going to get to go with my new pumas. ::wipes tears away::

I breathe you through passages and locked doors
A lair of dead, unfeeling floors
wrapped in a cavern of me.
Each inhalation brings keys and pushes open
I am left exposed, unsecret
Lost in a cavern of me.

Someone at Warped Tour was talking about being vegetarian so I think i'm going to try it out. They were really cool and had some hip style for sure. Can't go wrong with that!! <3 I just feel like if i see another goat again I'm just going to cry. They're so cute.. I want one and i want to get its labret pierced.

Should I get a tattoo? if so what? I was thinking of getting a banner wrapped around my ears with swallows inside my eardrums. the banner on the left ear will see "Secrets keep friends" and the other ear will say "Protect the nest". I dunno its just something personal about me and my friends. I would never turn their back on them. I want a motorcycle and a new haircut.
.:.:..xXx.:.:.;>;>;.casd;

the moon is down

2003-08-17T05:21:33Z

SOOO MUCH WORK SO LITTLE TIME. OMG someone help me i need a tutor or something! Sometimes i wish i didn't have to go to school and i was just like living on the streets being an artist or just being in poor. because poor people don't have to worry about bills and school and stress.

today i went shopping with my boy Jag.. we blew the mall up!! holla. express men has these amazing pants i want. if i had these pants i want officially be cool as crap!!! LOL. Nelly makes me wet. his music is amazing!!! I AM GETTTING SOOO HOTTTTTTTTTTTT WITH a little bit of hot hot. here is a pic of my new pants i got from gap, you guyZ tell me hOw they l00k!! i think they make my butt look big!! arrgg i need to work out!! any takers???

my new pants:

tell me what you think!!

so yeah i like someone. is it you? <3
oh wait, it's more of a like like. :D you should know who you are...
pps. add me to your friendz list peeps!! i'm out time to paint my nails! bia bia

is there anything worth dying for??

2003-08-16T07:41:09Z

I can't sleep I'm not sure if you're trying to push me away or if I'm just getting antsy when you're not here to reassure me. But thinking about you and our conversation last night and your journal entry gives me the same horrible frantic feeling in my stomach.::oh yeah, camping w/will and the remainder of the fab four got cancelled. after all the trouble i went through to convince my parents to let me go...and they finally said yes too!:: w00t w00t partayyy in the woods with my boyz will happen one day!! chris carrabba i would DIE for you.

But I believe in you so much darling

2003-08-16T07:24:41Z

Lately I've felt like I'm not myself.. It like a big whirlwind and I'm stuck in the middle wondering when I'm ever going to be that special someone in YOUR life. YOU deserve everything that is good and OMG there are MP3s up at mp3.com of some great emo/indie bands i'd like to think "I" discovered. My friend Susan could tell you differently but she is just a hata!! J/K Susan you know I love you girl!

no one knows whats really going on in my head. if they did they'd understand and everything would be ok. WHY DON'T YOU COME AND TELL ME THINGS. I stayed home tonight and just thought about things like birds and how they are just so free. They can just fly away to a completly different tree and just be happy. I want to be happy. I want to be a bird, but I want to keep my black girl booty. haha! actually I hate it, and I hate it when SOME PEOPLE choose to make it the topic of every CONVO. AM I GOING TO HAVE TO JUST STOP GOING TO SHOWS?!?!

i just need to drive a long way away to the mountains or something and just meet the person of my dreams. and we'll have a picnic and listen to death cab and then just leave and be happy that we met and listened to death cab together. I guess it wouldn't hurt if Ben Gibbard or Orlando Jones was the guy on the mountain. ;) On a lighter note I think i'm going to go to bed.. its calling me and my cramps are calling back. **nightnight**

"i wish everytime you saw that you this and wrote some random quote you'd think of me about thought"

2003-08-15T06:20:50Z

I think im gonna like change my last name to sorrow because i am so pitiful. Tonight i watched Life of David Gale and it just made me think about life and how we're not given anything in life and OMG the craziet thing happened and it reminded of a Modest Mouse song. Speaking of which I hope i can see them soon. They are hott and their music is soo inspiring for my art.

I need to do more art and just live on the streets and paint for a living. i don't want to make a lot of money just enough to like chill with all my friends and go to shows and eat of course. pps. i love mexican food! LOL!!!11 But yeah i will do art and all of you will be jealous! ROCK!

On a more cuter note I got my hair cut. I'm not sure if I like it and greg says it looks like his dogg!!! Man i never realized how much i miss that dude. When i'm with him i can just forget about everything. LOve you greg!!

Well time for bed.. i feel like my hands are about to fall off from sewing this neat design in my jeans. its a butterfly.. because.. i dunno, just something original that reminds me of myself and my flight through this crrazzee life. goodnight life.

What is up my peeps!

2003-08-02T05:38:19Z

OMG!!!11 my first post! ::hott::

Yeah this is crazy. I feel weird about it (not weird like my parents ha ha!) but weird like OMG weird. Like OMG i almost feel like kinda mainstream (sp?) haha. LJs are uber fresh though and i can't wait to uber update mine uber.

so yeah like tonigth i watched final destination 2 with my boyzzz!! (xxxmovie crewxxxxxx LOL!!). there was some crazy parts that would make a totally sick movie to play on a projection screen with strobe lights during breakdowns for my new band XXXDEATH FOR A BLOOD FALL PASSING IN THE SORROWS OF SWORN BACK DAYLIGHT DAWNSXXX. its going to be the sex.

question though? why is my life so screwed up. it seems like every week there isn't a show i don't have an identity. oh well (sigh) LOL (sigh) LOL kind of (sigh).. nothing a little hair dye and some long night chats with my xxxxxmovie crewxxxxxx boys can't fix!! luv you guys like 50 cent and ja rule beef! holla! lOl